Wednesday, August 29, 2012


Suddenly, a lot of exciting things are happening to me. I can't handle excitement very well, so I've been skipping and dancing around the house like a retarded cat in one of their "oh my god I must bounce of the walls and catch all the imaginary butterflies" moments.

So what's going to happen then? First, I'm going to start school soon. (Alright, not that soon, it's in about three weeks. But soon enough to get excited.) I almost finished the registration humbug and am off to buy new pens and notebooks, and I can't wait to get started!
Then, my dancing course starts again in September. I haven't danced for two months, and I've really missed it! So that's something to look forward to as well.
Our Shadowrun rpg group is going to start as well next week. We've been practicing a bit over the summer, to get acquainted with the game mechanics, and now the real story is about to begin. Time for some futuristic, nightly, infiltrating, and hacking action!
I also might start a new job! It's not exactly a new job, but a different branch at the office I work at. At the moment I'm working as a waitress at different restaurants and events, but our office also has a cooking department. At my last job I helped out in the kitchen (because the staff there was a bit... incompetent, to be honest), and realized that I like cooking and decorating dishes a lot more than being a waitress. So my office told me I could give it a try and see if I like it, and if so, I could switch!
Besides this job, it's also possible that I'll be helping out my mother in the book store she works at. She doesn't always have time to work, or sometimes she could use some help, so today I've learned how to open up the store and how the register works and all that. I love working with books, and it's a lovely store, so it would be nice to spend some time there!
Nope, it's not over yet! In a month I'm starting a course of Japanese, a language I've been wanting to learn for a long time. Probably since I was fifteen years old and discovered Japanese music. A friend of my Shadowrun group is starting up the same course as well, so I'll already have a friend there. Which is good, because I'm awful at making new friends.
And lastly... (and I personally think this one is the best), I've won an auction to go on a photo shoot with three amazing people. This is something I've been thinking about doing for a long time, because I would like to feel comfortable in front of a camera. It would be really good for my self-esteem. I've heard people say that I'm pretty sometimes, and for some reason I'm having trouble accepting that. Not that I want to be a model or something, I hardly have the body figure for that. But I'd really like it if this would work out to boost my self-confidence a bit. And the best part is, it will probably be steampunky!

In short, a lot of new adventures, all more or less around the same time. I hope my ship will hold course and be able to steer through them all without causing too much damage!

Friday, August 24, 2012


So I just turned in my thesis today, finally. Yay! More than a year of hard work *ahum* finally finished. Now I'm crossing my fingers and hoping my promoter thinks it's good as well, because he has done less than nothing the entire year, except being enthusiastic about my idea. But anyway, now I'm done with it (hopefully)!

What have I been working on an entire year, you ask? I have been studying to become a translator in English and Italian (and Dutch), so my thesis had to have something to do with language. I've always wanted to do something with the Sapir-Whorf hypothesis. (Gesundheit! No seriously, what?) Basically, two people a few decades ago decided that language is connected with thoughts. The language you speak has an influence on the way you experience reality and think about everything. Sadly, this theory wasn't very popular, because it's never really been proven - which is all Whorf's fault in my opinion, but enough about that already.
Because the hypothesis isn't really accepted, I've decided to apply it to fictitious languages! This means I've been working an entire year with linguistic relativity (a more accepted term for the Sapir-Whorf hypothesis), combined with Klingon, Quenya (one of Tolkien's Elvish languages), and some other science fiction book that no one ever heard about. (If you must know, it's called The languages of Pao, by Jack Vance. See, told you no one ever heard about it.)

So, yes, I did just spend an entire year analyzing Klingons and Elves, and made it all science-y! I'm quite proud of myself. And the best part is, the theory I've been testing actually has results. I already predicted it would at the beginning of last year, so I'm pleased to learn I was right. Language and thought are connected in made-up languages. 
I won't bore you with the details, the important thing is that I just found the science in science fiction and fantasy! Hurray for science!

Now, to enjoy another full month of vacation. *Sigh*. Let's see if I can find some text books for next year already...

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

My unimpressive sixth sense.

Every month, for about one week, I get super sensitive. My emotions are out of control: I cry because something sad happens in a book I'm reading, I get angry and lose my temper when someone annoys me, or I cry out of happiness because someone gives me a small compliment.
But that's not all. For one week, I get some kind of "sixth sense". Not that I can see dead people or something, that would be creepy. No, it's more of a vague future-telling sense. I don't know exactly what is going to happen, but I get some sort of intuitive feeling if something is a good or a bad idea.
For example, I'm walking around in the city and have to turn around a corner. There's a big building at the corner, so I don't see anything coming from the other street. At that moment, I'll get a feeling that I should stick close to the wall, or quicken my step, to avoid bumping into someone. 
Another example: I was at the supermarket the other day, looking for water. My favourite water tends to be sold out often, and when I reached the aisle I saw it was sold out that day, again. But somehow I "knew" it wasn't really. I looked around and found only one bottle. I almost decided to take just the one bottle and come back another day, but I got some kind of nagging feeling there was still more. So I got under the shelf (they are high shelves! I'm not that small. Honestly.) and dug around, moved some crates of different water, and right under those there were two crates of the water I was looking for. And only two, exactly the amount that I always take. 
And a third, more general example: I can just tell when I'm going to have a good or a bad day. When I'm off to work, on my way to do a job I really like, I'll get a feeling everything will go wrong that day. Even if I try my best to avoid making any mistakes, everything goes pear-shaped anyway. And I do mean everything.

I realize this doesn't really sound impressive, but it can be quite useful sometimes, to me. In those few moments I feel like I can take on the universe any time. I'm ready, show me what you've got in store for me. I'll handle it. Everything will go wrong today? No problem, I'll come back tomorrow...

The scariest thing is that my sixth sense is almost never wrong. And the only times that it is wrong, is when I've tried to force it. I try to consciously use it to predict something small, but it seems it doesn't work that way. Which is kind of a shame. But the times it does work, unconsciously, I tend to get a bit excited. Being able to predict certain small things is a bit scary, but it also gives me a weird feeling in my stomach. Could it be some "power" that I yet have to develop? Or is this all? And how does it work? And why doesn't it work consciously? These questions can keep me up for a long time, sometimes.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Things I would like to do before I die.

- Write a book.
- Learn Japanese (which I will do in September!).
- Visit another continent (I've never been outside of Europe O.o).
- Finish all Final Fantasy games. Currently almost finished number 1.
- Learn to play the violin properly. (I started once but had an accident involving squishing my left middle finger, so had to stop for a few years.)
- Make an epic steampunk outfit.